well,I finally am at it again. I didnt call the doctor about my headaches because after a go round with my son and his partner,they stopped.Interesting to hear his point of view about his childhood. They both were very aggressive and I just said dont email me or message me that I have had enough. It started when he read my Granddaughter's wall. Our Granddaughter from Moose Jaw,came to visit us on fathers day.It was so great,my daughters 2 kids came,too. It was a bit difficult at first as her Dad had died Saturday morning.Her mother told her to keep with her plans to see us. Natalie is a beautiful girl,Ronda has done a great job with her.

Now that the headaches are gone it is easier to get my travel list put together as well as my shopping list. It is going to be a big shop this time, have run out of basics,kitty litter,cat food and canned stuff. Ian needs some 2x2's for something and he is going to raise our mattress by at leas 2 inches,make it easier for me to get out of bed,especially when I have my whole leg is crippled up with charlie horses, painful suckers. When my feet get them,I cant walk until they are gone.

We have had thunder storms for 5 out of 7 days. I had to move the Yucca over to where it can take advantage of the rain. The thing has grown so much over the winter so I might have to put it in a bigger pot. I bought 2 neglected Xmas cacti and repotted them. They are both putting on new leaves so might bloom this year.The only things I cant grow are Ivy of any kind and Norfolk Island Pines. Maybe I should just think of them as temporary plants. All my plants are in the livingroom,facing east and they get filtered light all year. Bathroom has a huge spider plant with babies hanging all over the place. It soon will take over the bathroom !!!

We are having octopus for supper. Ian has followed a recipe from a cookbook,and so far the ugly thing is tender. Just has to cut it up and grill till its crisp. I thought it would already cut up but after it was thawed, it came out of the package as one whole octopus. Cant wait for supper !!!

well,I need to get some lunch and check my lists for tomorrow. will be back sooner then I have been.

well, we went quadding where the brush fire was. It was desolate,some place there were acres and acres of burned trees. But everywhere we saw signs that nature was fighting back. Green grass,fireweed and little marsh flowers. I was getting ill when we decided it was enough,it was so hot with all the trees and undergrowth all burned away. I get sea-sick and all the humps and bumps made me feel like I was going to barf.

It is just getting cool now at almost 10pm.we keep the windows closed until the outside is cooler then the inside. Think I will go and sit outside where it is cooler. The cops have been driving round and round the streets,wonder if someone else has had a quad stollen. that word doesnt look right somehow. We are having the grandkids that live near out for Fathers day. be real nice for Ian. Cathy and the kids will be out at 11,so I can get Caits to help.vacum the kitchen,will close the doors to the other rooms so only have to clean the bathroom.

I am not even cooking tomorrow,Ian is doing steaks and steaming new potatos. I am going to sit like a Buddah,being inscrutible and spouting words of wisdom. Actually I have to be gentle with our Saskatchewan granddaughter's mom,her Dad died this morning .Her mother told her to keep her plans with us as did her Dad. We cant say anything because she hasnt told Natalie yet as she is only4 and must find a gentle way to tell her.

Funny I never got along with Ronda when she was with our son,but since they broke up we have been closer and can keep in touch with Natalie anytime we wish. Now that Ian is her only grandfather,he wants her to know we love her,too. It is supposed to be hotter tomorrow,glad I put the big watermelon in the fridge. Hope it tastes good!!.well,its too hot to sit at the computer and I do need to sleep tonight. will be back tomorrow,I hope !!!

It has been a while since I wrote anything.I have had headaches,probably my brain is falling apart.Ian had an accident with his table saw.A chunk of the wood came apart and smacked him in the forehead with enough force to knock him flat on his ass. If he had have done what I wanted which was go to the hospital,I figured he would bleed like a stuck pig taking warfarin and all. Of course he didnt. and of course I was mad about that. But then,I dont tell him about my gut problems or headaches.

This coming week we are going camping for a few days, sort of a shake-down cruise. Then we can see what we need to put in it and what we dont need. Took everything out when we put it away for the winter now have to do the reverse. Thats where my compulsive list making shines.

Ian is going quadding tomorrow and I decided that to hell with housework,I will go too. It has been hot today, we spent the morning sitting at the pergola and watching baby nuthatches being fed by their mother.Same thing with chickadees. we keep pnut butter and birdseed mixture in the holders all year long.First year the mothers and babies have been here. The crows are nesting on top of the neighbours tree,we can see them when the parents feed them.They will be gone soon. We have a little wren that sings so nicely,so that makes it just that much nicer to be outside. well,all for tonight,head is hurting so need some sleep.will make sure to write more soon.

well here I am again.The bad neighbours have been playing radio music loud,so of course I had to retaliate-German heavy metal,blues,reggae soon!! I am so bad!! I feel pretty good today Its sunny and warm and the wrens have been singing all day.

Our daughter and 2 grandkids are moving back with us. She just cant afford to keep the apartment and feed the kids and pay her bills. It is a bad place for her to live. Her ex-boyfriend smacked her, ,knocked over little Kritter plus gave my granddaughter bruises. all over his cell phone.Well the police are taking over.

I like things peaceful but there is always drama here. We may put off our trip until August,but no later then the middle of August. One advantage is we will get the freezer cleaned out,both of them!

I dont know what to have for supper,maybe some of the walleye,easy to do and tastes good. Could make veggie coucous with Ian friendly veggies.

I found the book for my cell phone,Ian can figure out for me how to get vibrate off and ringtone on. Cant hurt the thing but I hate dealing with electronics. Give him something to do tonight.

I had to go back to my titanium wedding band as the gold one is way too tight. I find it takes some getting used to,it is a lot heavier than gold. One hand has titanium and silver and the other hand has stainless steel with gypsy set diamonds and gold and white gold.. I am a jewelry freak I guess.

The good neighbours are sitting outside so I put on classical-Vivaldi's Four Seasons. It was the first classical I had Ian listen to and he liked it. Anything but late 50 early60 country. He listens to Hank Williams in the garage.Cant stand it along with rap. well, my brain is like a black hole,sucks everything in but never lets interesting stuff back out!

Got back from fishing a couple of hours ago.Was raining here but no rain in Athabasca and Calling Lake is another 52km further north. It was sunny,there was no great wind and it wasnt rough. We got our limit of 4 walleye,2 each. They have to be a certain size,no smaller and no larger. Harry took his gravol without any problem,no drooling. He had fun ,hunting the mayflies. Mighty hunter my foxy is. He growled at every guy he saw, they all thought it was a joke. Hey he is all terrier and it doesnt matter to him what the size of other dogs or people are.

Ian is giving one fillet away to friends but we will still have 7 left. I am so sleepy,all the fresh air I guess. Ian is going to help with the tranny he worked on last night,have to hook up hoses and what not. That will give me a chance to dig through the pile on the computer desk,about time,too. There are so many things here than need to be put away. Will do laundry,too.Have to wash my jeans to make sure the colour doesnt leach out. Either that or I am going to wear pyjama pants when go to the Yukon. well,this is a short one,cant keep awake so off to bed I go. Bye for now.

It has stopped raining and the sun is out,Harry will be glad,he hates going out in the rain. The grass is up to his belly but have to wait until it dries because the lawn mower is electric and with my luck,I would run over the power cord!!! Make my eyes light up!! Ian is helping a friend to put in a transmission in a 3 ton truck.

Tomorrow is the fishing trip up to Calling Lake,can keep 2 walleye each. He wants to go camping for a couple of days next week,sort of a shake down trip. See what we need to put back in and clean the fridge with baking soda. All the towels have to come in and be washed,they smell like,well,I cant really describe it,sort of a dead smell. the blankets have to come out,too.

We are leaving it late to confirm lists and such. The truck needs to be cleaned out,too.

Have bruises on both arms from the witch at the lab.I have to go again the first part of July,no butterfly,no blood!! The bruise on my left arm is the size of a looney and purple,the one on my right is the size of a golf ball. well,thats all I can think of tonight,be back tomorrow.

well, its raining,we need it. Went out to see where the fire burned,which is also where we have buried our daughters cat and Isaac. little burned around the edges of the place but the fire didnt get the graves. It mainly burned the grass and pine and spruce trees,this was at the edge of one side of the burn.I was so afraid they would have made a firebreak right through the graves. I am used to FIRE BREAKS on the island,not the puny little ones they put here.

Went to the lab today. the witch in there,even after I told her I have poor veins,used a big needle which hurt like hell and she wondered why she only got a few drops. I told her they usually use a butterfly,it takes longer but gets results. So we went to the other side and she went right through the vein,I told her it was full of scar tissue from constant bloodtests. Finally she got enough for 6 vials but it hurt and she got on my last nerve.

Dont know for sure when we are going fishing with rain forecast for all week. Poor Harry was car sick today,we didnt go very far but I opened my window and let him have fresh air and he perked up again. Was going to clean up around the computer desk but didnt,tried to finish a book but couldnt.It was just a lazy day all around. I just couldnt get motivated. Its not like I have to get stuff done right away or the earth would stop spinning. I figure getting all the books in the bookcases was enough done for a few days.

Going to get Ian to bring up a roast from the freezer and I will stuff it in the crockpot,easy, meal cooks itself. My granddaughter who is 17 loves stew and really is happy when it has dough balls [dumplings]. I should make another batch of xmas cake,have all the stuff to make it,even the rum but if no rum,can put in bourbon. I have altered the recipie over the years so it doesnt have any fruit except glace cherries and golden raisins,only almonds etc. I like making it and butter tarts.Well this is making me want some supper so I should find some like tomato soup and grilled cheese. Talk again tomorrow,who knows what that will bring!!

well,here I am again. It was a beautiful day,not really warm but sunny. I am going to have to get Harry a raincoat,it rained last night and it took forever to get him out. I am sure that I am losing my mind. I spent more time today trying to remember simple stuff like,where is my cellphone and did I shut it off. I have to fill up my daily pill holder,was going to do it all day but forgot until now.

We are going fishing Tuesday because that is supposed to be the best day weather wise. Dont know how Harry is going to like the boat. can tie his leash to the anchor.He and I have to both have on sunscreen, I will spray it on a cotton ball and wipe the inside of his ears. I need it or I will be beet red in a matter of an hour,less if its sunny. I should have bought Harry the ball cap at PetSmart,he is going to get one before we go to the Yukon. I can give him up to .6cc of Gravol but he was a bit sleepy with the .3cc so that is enough. Bought him heartworm medication just to be sure-$22 a month. I am going to the UFA store in the Fort,they gave all kinds of wormers and the like. I may just get ivermectin and use it on Harry and Baby Ditz. Used to use it on all the critters.

Today I just did the least thing possible.Finally got the Yucca plant and the cacti outside.The Yucca has really grown over the winter. Spent some time taking off dead leaves so bugs dont have somewhere to hide.Watered the houseplants and shoved a fertilizer stick in them all. I am sure they enjoy the benign neglect I give them.They sure dont get overwatered here,lol.

I have to find a decent pot for the weeping fig,so it is ready when the tree grows.I dont know what to do about my jade plant,it is growing like a weed.I suppose the eastern light all day long helps,its bright and in summer there is a little sun in the morning,well it is sunny when I get up!!!

I was going to get books put in the bookcase but never did,Ian has his stuff[junk] on 4 shelves!!I told him 1/2 of a shelf.He only hears the first few words then turns the rest into something he thinks I would say. Makes for some interesting disagreements. It would be great if he would say I am right and do it my way. Its not that I need to be right,I just need to be right!! well it is midnight and I do need to get the stupid pillbox filled.Night to all until the next one of these.

Short one tonight,my back is feeling great. Doctor laughed at the circles,Bulls eye! We did a quick trip into Edmonton,Harry gets .3CC of gravol,it makes him a little groggy and he is so funny.He growled at every dog in PetSmart today,He wanted to take on an English bulldog. Got him his muzzle,he hates it but too bad,he will only wear it when kids are around. I wanted to buy him a cute blue ball cap that said I bite but Ian is against dressing up a dog. I couldnt buy him a toy either,we had 15 on the bed last night,there is some in the bathroom,kitchen and livingroom plus some in this room. Guess he has enough until xmas.

Ian got his cherry tomato planted in a big tub,he wants to move it around to 'follow' the sun. One of the tomato plants we bought yesterday is a purple one,the other is a bush tomato.We still have tons of tomatos in the bottom of the freezer from last year! thats why only the 3 plants this year.

Tomorrow I am going to put books in the book shelves. Back hurt so much just couldnt do it before now. I am going to try and get stuff done while I can do it without pain. I can deal with a lot but when you cant even do anything,thats too much.

The alliums are all out of their covering and they look like purple star-burst fireworks. The iris that Ian dug up from a ditch have flowers on each plant,and another plant he dug up from the ditch had red flowers last year but the plants themselves have doubled in number. One bag of potatos had a lot of sprouts so Ian planted them to see if they would grow,well,they are all up and doing fine. Next year I am going to but a Virginia Creeper and plant it at one side of the garden bench.It has a trellis over the top and if I am lucky,it will eventually crawl over it. We didnt get a hole dug for it this year but will shovel away the rainbow rock and cut the plastic and Ian can dig a hole for it. Hope I can avoid buying gnomes when they go on sale,probably not. I filled the yard with solar lights,some are just lights and others change colour. Our back yard is divided in 3 parts,my rocks from BC and Yellowknife,which has the pergola and gnomes,the middle third contains grass and the veggie garden,and the other third beyond the chain link fence has the garage,travel trailer and the truck and it is all gravel. the front yard is half rainbow rock as a base with very large rocks we have collected around here,the other half is grass.Put a new front porch on but never did get around to putting in the stairs. May not,dont get unwanted callers every week!! well this is longer than I thought but sometimes I get going and cant stop. I hope anyone whom reads this will not be bored by it.Nite All.

well got my shots today,the doctor put in extra lidocaine so I would get immediate relief from the pain.It takes 2-3 days for the inflamation to settle down. I didnt ask him about stronger pills for breakthrough pain.He did get a kick out of the circles!

We have to go into the pet store tomorrow to get Harry's muzzle and to get some medication to protect him from heartworms,It will actually get rid of any bad thing he may have in his gut. We have to stop at the vets before we head into the city to pick up a very small syringe so we can measure the gravol. I still have syringes from when we had goats,horses,in BC. I actually protected the dogs from heartworm without even knowing. Every critter got ivermectin,and it didnt hurt them.

Its going to be a flying trip into the city,have to plant snapdragons and Rosemary.I love the smell of it and cook a lot with it.[when I cook,lol].Ian is cooking little steaks for supper,not really little,just the size I should be eating. I gained a bunch of weight so have to get on the bike and use it to help to shed some pounds.

It is supposed to rain tomorrow and even the next day. The temps for May have been cooler than normal,global warming?? I didnt sleep well last night,had a return of nightmares I had as a kid. Must have some issues about things. I usually dream about the drinking my parents. And have had the dream of living through the admitting of my mother into a detox ward. I had to clean the house which included pouring the rye down the sink when I found it. It is hard because my two older sisters didnt have a clue and the 3 younger kids ignored it. Guess who got called, me. I barf at the smell of rye. My kids remember my parent's drinking.

Harsh legacy to give my kids,strong possibility that they could be addicted to something.

On the brighter side,it was 22C outside,great,just hope the warmer weather gets here soon,dont want my bones to ache. well Ian has started cooking supper so must go.will be back tomorrow,God willing and the creeks dont rise. Bye